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Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a worker who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth. - 2 Timothy 2:15 NIV

A Letter to God

Dear God,

 I’ll try not to take up too much of your time. I want you to know that I’m so sad and hurt.  I’ve been abused all of my life and I really need your help.  I believe with all of my heart that you are the only one who can help me.  I am a 15 year old girl and the daughter of a single mother.  I never knew my father. Well, maybe I did for a short time.  He left my mother when I was three.  As I remember, my father and mother screamed and fought mostly.   Their arguments made me sad and frighten. I remember trying to hide from the noise, but it would always find me. There was no escaping it. When my father left I had peace for a short while.

My mother said she loved me. However, if she really loved me she would have taken better care of me. She allowed so many bad things to happen to me. Things I can’t forget, and had no control over. Shortly after my father left, my mother allowed another man to move in with us. I was afraid.  She told me he was my pretend daddy and that I was to show him love. My mother thought she had this big happy family. She didn’t.  I was being neglected by her more and more.  My pretend daddy began fondling me.  He was giving me all of the love, hugs and kisses I never got from her or my father. With him I felt loved in a weird kind of way. 

 I awoke one morning to them yelling and arguing. I became frighten again. I got up out of my bed and ran trying to find a hiding place. I heard my mother screaming telling him to get out or she would call the police and have him removed. God! I was only a child, why did my mother put me through so many changes?  I also remember hoping my mother would understand that she doesn’t need anyone else.  Why couldn’t she just love me the way God intended for her too? 

 I had hope things would change. They did for a while, but reality kicked in again.  My mother became so desperate she would leave me at home all alone. She would wait until I fell asleep and then she’d get dressed and go out with her friends.   It frightened me to be home alone so much.  Somehow I always managed to cry myself to sleep.  My mother’s priorities were her boyfriends, partying, and doing drugs.  I felt no love from her! That made me sad and angry.

 There were times when she got angry at her friends or her boyfriends.  She would come home screaming at me.  All I wanted and needed was a little of her time. She always told me how hard she worked to give me everything I needed.  She couldn’t understand that I needed her love, time, hugs, and kisses; but she was too busy to give me those things.  Sure, she kept food on the table and I had all the things I needed.  But God, I needed her love, and I still do. Why couldn’t she see that? I spent my life afraid and always wondering what I did wrong, my mother had convinced me that I had a problem. But today, I finally realized that my mother had the problem, and not me. 

 I remember one day my mother left me alone with one of her male friends. She said she had something very important to do and I had to stay with him. That was nothing new because she had done this all of my life.  I was only 8! He was really nice to me just like the rest. He told me how pretty I was and that made me feel really good and special.  All I ever wanted was someone to love and show me attention.  He asked me if he could give me a hug and a kiss.  I didn’t answer but he did it anyway.  He hugged, kissed, and touched my body in different places, and then he laughed and told me what a good girl I was.  God, I was a scared little girl and I didn’t know what to do.  I told my mother what happened to me and she told me that I was lying.  My mother was so wrapped up into her own world, she had forgotten all about me and my needs.

 Two years passed and my mother had many boyfriends.  It seemed like most of them wanted to hug me, and touch me in places that made me feel very uncomfortable. After a while, I began to think it was normal.  I thought men were supposed to sleep with mothers and their daughters. 

 One night when I was ten, my mother was acting really strange.  There were bottles and cans everywhere.  She had been drinking and doing drugs.  My mother lie down on the couch, and fell fast asleep.  I cried because I didn’t know what to do. Her friend hugged me and told me to go to bed; he would come to tuck me in.  I went to bed and he came into my room, climbed into bed with me.  He hugged me. I was okay with it because at that time I would have accepted love from anyone.  But this particular night he did more than hug me.  He hurt me really bad and he said he did it because he loved me.

 The next day when I told my mother, she slapped me and told me I had a bad dream.  It seemed like I was trapped with nowhere to go.  I had a mother whose love I never knew.  I’d been abused by most of her boyfriends and she was too blind to see it.

God, when I thought things couldn’t get any worse it did.  At the age of twelve, my mother sat down with me. She told me she was trying to change. I thought this could be good.  She went on to tell me that she was fed up with men.  She said they weren’t any good or at least she couldn’t find one that was. My mother asked me to be opened minded.  I was a bit confused because I didn’t know what she was going to tell me.  She told me she had someone for me to meet.  I told her “mother, you just told me you were fed up with men.”  “I am,” she replied.  That is why I want you to meet my lover.  She told me that all of my pretend fathers didn’t work, so she wanted to try something different.  I looked at her in disbelief. Her lover was a woman.

 That relationship lasted two years.  I didn’t see a whole lot of fighting and things were pretty calm.  It appeared things were going great for my mother and her lover. As I got older, there were times when I thought about dating girls. There were even times when I thought about dating older men.   I was really confused.  I will be glad when my mother understands that she and I would be better off alone. Why can’t she see that all we need is each others?  Not another man or woman.  My mother ruined my life.  Surely she must realize that.  

Today I’m 15 with a lot of issues. I often wonder if I should date boys or girls. I was never taught any morals.  God, I have been abused by my mother and her friends. I don’t know what to do. I’m so confused. There are so many feelings roaring inside me and I don’t know how to get rid of them.

 Today I spend my time going after every boy that would talk to me; sometimes girls.  I just want love and attention from whomever would give it to me.

 But through my quest trying to find love, someone told me about you God.  I was told that your love was everlasting.  I was also told that you don’t care about my confusions and issues. You can take all of my issues away and make a new person out of me.  I was also told that you sent your only son Jesus Christ to die on the cross for me, and he resurrected on the third day.   I was told that if I believed that this is true I would be saved and you would give me a new life. 

 God I believed that Christ died on the cross and arose on the third day.  Today I invite Him into my heart.  Forgive me for sinning against you.  Make me a new person.  Come into my heart and change me.  Save my soul.  Amen.

 Love,

 

An Abused Girl

                   A Message from Heaven

How does one tell his family, friends and church family goodbye? 

I’ll start by telling you all that I’m okay!  Wipe the tears from your eyes

I know you all are sad, and  many are mourning ;
I know you all are sad, and  many are mourning ; that’s quite okay
Take joy in knowing if you have accepted Christ you will see one day
Mother, I didn’t get the chance to say my last I love you

I know you all are sad, and  many are mourning; that’s quite okay

Take joy in knowing if you have accepted Christ you will see one day

 Mother, I didn’t get the chance to say my last I love you

 There shouldn’t be a doubt in your mind because you know I do

 I know it was times when you thought I didn’t hear or listen to you

 I heard it loud and clear mother, but it was God who said I had too

 Dad I had all the intentions to one day be the man you wanted me to be

 God had a different plan for me! He wanted here! Don’t be hurt for I am free

 My precious big sister, I know sometimes we didn’t see eye to eye

 I love you and I know you miss me! Please try to always remember my beautiful smile

 Baby brother, I’m sorry I left you alone to grow up without a big brother

 God will take care of you; He knows the love we had for each other

 My precious grandparents or anyone who has traveled from a far

 I’m sorry I am not there, please be strong, and it’s okay if you want to cry

 To my Pastor, church family, and the Spirit filled teachers who care deeply for me

 Your teachings weren’t in vain, I heard you and today I am as happy as I can be

 Now to my peers, and my friends, Christ was an example for us, He died for our sin

 I too can be an example for you; please don’t let my death be in vain

 I was young! My life was short! It ended so quickly; but I deserve a celebration

 You all thought that I was cool, but the secret I never told was I had accepted Christ’s Salvation

 I know some of us hung out together, got into trouble, and yes we broke some rules

 Please be smart for me, stay away from trouble, do good, finish school for that was my goal

 Honor, obey, and respect your parents for they know what is best for you

 You are not smarter than them Listen to me this is what God commands you to do

 I know what happened to me was ugly, cruel, and meant for evil

 But God has already turned it around for His good; He will always defeat the devil

 Lastly, I want to ask all of family, peers, friends and church family for a favor

If you want to see me again, will you accept Christ today  as Lord and Savior?

 Please don’t be angry and aim for revenge, if you do; that will be wrong

 God will avenge! He was the one who whisper to me “it’s time to come home my son.”

 I didn’t fight, I saw my Savior Jesus Christ standing there with opened arms

 He said come to me my precious child! Welcome! I’ll do you no harm

 I know it’s hard seeing my earthly body lying there so still

 Just remember it’s only a body, my Spirit is with God the Father, for that was His will!

 Love always,

Your teenage Son or Daughter!


Love always Your teenage son or daughter!

Love always Your teenage son or daughter!

Love always Your teenage son or daughter!

 

 


Love always Your teenage son or daughter!

 

             Join The Jesus Gang

                                      To my young brothers and sisters

Who chose not to accept Christ in your heart.

You have turned your backs on your families

And have joined gangs for a new start.

Now you think that you are happy with your new life

You’ve done some terrible things to join,

Did you even think about Christ?

You say your new family is now your boys in the hood

And you invite everyone to join

Because you think that gangs are misunderstood

You think that this gang stuff is great,

And now you’ve forgotten about your father and mother

And you even act as if you don’t have a sister or brother

Your family has always talked to you about God

But you refused to listen because you thought that they were odd

You would say to yourself, this God doesn’t sound like much fun

You would rather hang out with your homeboys and play with a gun

You even thought that one day you might get to shoot one

Because you think that shooting a gun will be awesome

You go to school and you pretend that you want to learn

So you sit in the classroom knowing

That being a gangster is your only concern

You live to spend your nights on the streets

And you walk around bragging because you think it’s great

You do these things because Satan has said

That joining a gang is the only way out

If you want to be part of a gang,

Join with Jesus and learn what His gang is about

He doesn’t require you too carry a gun to protect yourself.

He will watch over you and everyone else

With Jesus being the leader of your gang

You can always turn to Him and not the devil.

Come and join, with Him and you will see there will be no evil.

He will tell you to always love your sister and brother.

While Satan is telling you to go out and kill one another

When Jesus is your leader, death will not be your fate.

Please listen to me join the Jesus gang before it is too late.

Satan has fooled you and taught you nothing but hate.

If you come to Jesus, He will give you peace and joy

Therefore you will no longer have the desire to kill or destroy.

Before you go out and join a gang,

Please accept and ask Jesus for advice.

If you do, you won’t join that other gang,

You’ll think about it twice.

Jesus has the largest gang in the world.

It is made up of men, women, boys, and girls

You won’t have to worry about shootings

Instead there will be plenty of praising

If you don’t belong to Jesus, expect to be arrested

But if you come to Him, you will always be protected.

Now sisters and brothers, please consider Christ

When you accept Him into your life

You will have no desire to join that other gang

Listen! He is knocking on your heart,

Please come and join the Jesus’ gang

When you do He will never depart. 

 

    Lord Forgive Me For Joining A Gang

 If I had known my life would turn out like this

I never would have joined this gang and taken such a risk

Being part of a gang seemed really exciting to me

But it was a mistake this I can finally see

It is too late now I’ve already joined

I wish I had listened to my mother, I’m her only son

She said to me “Son, what you are doing is so wrong?”

But I didn’t care; the gang needed me because I was strong

It was great; I got to hang out on the streets at night

Doing things I knew wasn’t right

You see, in the gang, my boys showed me plenty of love

They were not even ashamed to give me a big hug

I could see that they loved and cared for me

This was great because I got to run wild and free

Pretty soon I was drinking and doing drugs

I kept telling myself that this life rocks

But, deep down inside, I missed my mother a lot

I would lie in bed at night wondering why

I was thinking about leaving, but I knew if I did I would die

I felt trapped and I wasn’t having much fun

Then things got serious, so I had to carry a gun

I developed habits that I surely couldn’t support

And I didn’t want to work because it wasn’t cool

I know now that those were the thoughts of a fool

One day I needed a fix so I shot and robbed an old lady

I didn’t care about anything. I would even attack a mother and her baby

You must understand, on the streets I was known as a gangster

And the idea of me getting out, hey, I knew the answer

If I tried, I know my boys will shoot me dead

So I did what I had to, pretending not to be afraid

It was my boys that I made a vow

I did whatever they asked me to do

One night things got heated when another gang came on our side

The fight started and no one backed down, we all had a lot of pride

They finally left and no one got hurt or killed.

But we were upset and we made a vow not to sit still

We immediately started to plan a drive by

I was excited; I thought finally an eye for an eye

We jumped into our cars late one night

And went to a house and waited until no one was in sight

We fired about twenty rounds into a house

And I said to myself, I know we took someone out

We drove away yelling and screaming until we were out of breath

Not knowing that we had shot two children to death

When I heard, I asked God to have mercy, because I was truly hurt

I wasn’t all bad; you see my mom brought me up in church

I knew about God, but it’s too late, He can’t help me now

Because I never trusted Him and to Him I made no vows

We were on the run and now it is each man for himself

Hey! Where are they now when I needed help?

What happened to the commitment we made to each other?

Oh God, please help me! If I had only listened to my mother

The thought of killing those children nearly drove me crazy

Even though I was not the one who pulled the trigger

I was there and I was just as guilty

I turned myself in because it was hard living with the pain

Besides, running away for the rest of my life, what is there to gain?

I was sentenced and the judge gave me 20 years jail

Seeing my mother there really hurt, because it was her I failed

I was thrown in jail and the doors were locked

And everything in my past, I tried to block out

This was a new beginning and I wanted something real

I needed something that I couldn’t see, but something I could feel

I began attending church one night

It was there I found what was missing in my life

It was my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.

Lord, please forgive me for joining this gang

Thank you for not taking my life with just a bang

If you bless me to get out of here, I would never join again

Christ, I have you in my life and I am a changed man

Living my life for you is now my desired plan. 

Love always  Your teenage son or daughter!

Love always  Your teenage son or daughter!

Love always  Your teenage son or daughter!

Love always  Your teenage son or daughter!
Dad I had all the intentions to one day be the man you wanted me to be
God had a different plan for me! He wanted here! Don’t be hurt for I am free
My precious big sister, I know sometimes we didn’t see eye to eye
I love you and I know you miss me! Please try to always remember my beautiful smile
Baby brother, I’m sorry I left you alone to grow up without a big brother
I know it was times when you thought I didn’t hear or listen to you
Mother, I didn’t get the chance to say my last I love you
Take joy in knowing if you have accepted Christ you will see one day
Mother, I didn’t get the chance to say my last I love you
I’ll start by telling you all that I’m okay!  Wipe the tears from your eyes
I know you all are sad, and  many are mourning ; that’s quite okay
Take joy in knowing if you have accepted Christ you will see one day
Mother, I didn’t get the chance to say my last I love you
There shouldn’t be a doubt in your mind because you know I do
I know it was times when you thought I didn’t hear or listen to you
I did mother, I heard your heart that Sunday when it said don’t go
I heard it loud and clear mother, but it was God who said I had too
Dad I had all the intentions to one day be the man you wanted me to be
God had a different plan for me! He wanted here! Don’t be hurt for I am free
My precious big sister, I know sometimes we didn’t see eye to eye
I love you and I know you miss me! Please try to always remember my beautiful smile
Baby brother, I’m sorry I left you alone to grow up without a big brother
God will take care of you; He knows the love we had for each other
My precious grandparents or anyone who has traveled from a far
I’m sorry I am not there, please be strong, and it’s okay if you want to cry
To my Pastor, church family, and the Spirit filled teachers who care deeply for me
Your teachings weren’t in vain, I heard you and today I am as happy as I can be
Now to my peers, and my friends, Christ was an example for us, He died for our sin
I too can be an example for you; please don’t let my death be in vain
 I was young! My life was short! It ended so quickly; but I deserve a celebration
You all thought that I was cool, but the secret I never told was I had accepted Christ’s Salvation
I know some of us hung out together, got into trouble, and yes we broke some rules
Please be smart for me, stay away from trouble, do good, finish school for that was my goal
Honor, obey, and respect your parents for they know what is best for you
You are not smarter than them Listen to me this is what God commands you to do
I know what happened to me was ugly, cruel, and meant for evil
But God has already turned it around for His good; He will always defeat the devil
Lastly, I want to ask all of family, peers, friends and church family for a favor
If you want t see me again, will you accept Christ today  as Lord and Savior?
Please don’t be angry and aim for revenge, if you do; that will be wrong
God will avenge! He was the one who whisper to me “it’s time to come home my son.”
I didn’t fight, I saw my Savior Jesus Christ standing there with opened arms
He said come to me my precious child! Welcome! I’ll do you no harm
 I know it’s hard seeing my earthly body lying there so still
Just remember it’s only a body, my Spirit is with God the Father, for that was His will!
 Love always  Your teenage son or daughter!
I’ll start by telling you all that I’m okay!  Wipe the tears from your eyes
I know you all are sad, and  many are mourning ; that’s quite okay
Take joy in knowing if you have accepted Christ you will see one day
Mother, I didn’t get the chance to say my last I love you
I’ll start by telling you all that I’m okay!  Wipe the tears from your eyes
I know you all are sad, and  many are mourning ; that’s quite okay
Take joy in knowing if you have accepted Christ you will see one day
Mother, I didn’t get the chance to say my last I love you
There shouldn’t be a doubt in your mind because you know I do
I know it was times when you thought I didn’t hear or listen to you
I did mother, I heard your heart that Sunday when it said don’t go
I heard it loud and clear mother, but it was God who said I had too
Dad I had all the intentions to one day be the man you wanted me to be
God had a different plan for me! He wanted here! Don’t be hurt for I am free
My precious big sister, I know sometimes we didn’t see eye to eye
I love you and I know you miss me! Please try to always remember my beautiful smile
Baby brother, I’m sorry I left you alone to grow up without a big brother
God will take care of you; He knows the love we had for each other
My precious grandparents or anyone who has traveled from a far
I’m sorry I am not there, please be strong, and it’s okay if you want to cry
To my Pastor, church family, and the Spirit filled teachers who care deeply for me
Your teachings weren’t in vain, I heard you and today I am as happy as I can be
Now to my peers, and my friends, Christ was an example for us, He died for our sin
I too can be an example for you; please don’t let my death be in vain
 I was young! My life was short! It ended so quickly; but I deserve a celebration
You all thought that I was cool, but the secret I never told was I had accepted Christ’s Salvation
I know some of us hung out together, got into trouble, and yes we broke some rules
Please be smart for me, stay away from trouble, do good, finish school for that was my goal
Honor, obey, and respect your parents for they know what is best for you
You are not smarter than them Listen to me this is what God commands you to do
I know what happened to me was ugly, cruel, and meant for evil
But God has already turned it around for His good; He will always defeat the devil
Lastly, I want to ask all of family, peers, friends and church family for a favor
If you want t see me again, will you accept Christ today  as Lord and Savior?
Please don’t be angry and aim for revenge, if you do; that will be wrong
God will avenge! He was the one who whisper to me “it’s time to come home my son.”
I didn’t fight, I saw my Savior Jesus Christ standing there with opened arms
He said come to me my precious child! Welcome! I                    
I’ll start by telling you all that I’m okay!  Wipe the tears from your eyes
I know you all are sad, and  many are mourning ; that’s quite okay
Take joy in knowing if you have accepted Christ you will see one day
Mother, I didn’t get the chance to say my last I love you
There shouldn’t be a doubt in your mind because you know I do
I know it was times when you thought I didn’t hear or listen to you
I did mother, I heard your heart that Sunday when it said don’t go
I heard it loud and clear mother, but it was God who said I had too
Dad I had all the intentions to one day be the man you wanted me to be
God had a different plan for me! He wanted here! Don’t be hurt for I am free
My precious big sister, I know sometimes we didn’t see eye to eye
I love you and I know you miss me! Please try to always remember my beautiful smile
Baby brother, I’m sorry I left you alone to grow up without a big brother
God will take care of you; He knows the love we had for each other
My precious grandparents or anyone who has traveled from a far
I’m sorry I am not there, please be strong, and it’s okay if you want to cry
To my Pastor, church family, and the Spirit filled teachers who care deeply for me
Your teachings weren’t in vain, I heard you and today I am as happy as I can be
Now to my peers, and my friends, Christ was an example for us, He died for our sin
I too can be an example for you; please don’t let my death be in vain
 I was young! My life was short! It ended so quickly; but I deserve a celebration

Trust God

             (For Boys)

 You may be young and don’t know what lies ahead

When you trust God, there is no reason to be afraid

Always strive to do your best in school and work hard

Because in the end you’ll get your just reward

There may be times when you will feel picked on

Don’t be discouraged because, in the end you’ll be a better person

Sometimes you may see your teachers as your enemy

Its okay, they do what they do to make you a winner

There may be days when you won’t feel like going to school

If you don’t, how will you make the honor roll?

Don’t waste a lot of time thinking that your parents are mean and cruel

They’re not; it may be you trying to go against their rules

Don’t ever forget that they are your parents, they deserve respect

After all, honoring and respecting them is what God expects

You may be a little older now, but you still don’t know a lot about life

Just remember to trust God, strive to love all, and do what is right

Throughout your life you’ll have to make many choices

However, trying to change your gender isn’t one of them

God is perfect; He doesn’t make mistakes; He created man and woman

It’s okay for girls to be your friends, but nothing more

Love them as your sisters in Christ and God will bless you for sure

There may come a time when you may be asked to join a gang for fun

Don’t do it, you could end up hurt or even dead from a gun

Someone may even ask you to drink and do drugs

Tell them no because you have no desire to be a thug

Always think and be smart, you don’t want to end up in jail

There is no fun waiting on someone to get you out on bail

Sometimes, you may wonder what life holds for you next

No matter what it is you can always trust God for help

During your lifetime, many will turn their backs on you

It doesn’t matter, God is there for you and He loves your enemies too

Please remember, making the same mistake over and over is not okay

You must learn from your mistakes and through it all continue to pray

You will even have friends that will try to tell you how to live

Don’t listen, because dishonesty and lies is what they may give

Besides, God commanded your parents to teach you right from wrong

Let them, you just listen and He’ll make you strong

There may be times when you think you know it all

Stop pretending!  One day you will stumble and fall

Don’t ever walk around with your head down feeling defeated

Go to God and ask Him why you were created

Soon you will learn that life on earth is just a great big test

Live your life, honor God, and your parents, and always do your best

Keep your faith and trust in God, and He’ll do the rest

 

 Honor Your Father      And Mother

     I am your God and I say to you honor                your father and mother

Do not disrespect or dishonored them in any way

I’ve made them stewards over you and you will obey

This is the only commandment I’ve given with a promise

When you honor your parents, your life will be longer upon this land

Many children haven’t, they didn’t honor therefore I’ve shortened their lifespan

There are children who only honor their parents while they are young

When they grow up, they disrespect and mistreat treat them, this is wrong

In this I see no honor, you will be punished and your life won’t be long

I hear children saying their parents don’t honor them.

How foolish, I never said they had to

You must honor your parents in everything you do

If your parents are not treating you the way I have told them

Trust me and know that I am God, I sit high and I see all things

It doesn’t matter how old you are, or what your parents have done

You should always honor your father sight and mother, if you do,

You will live the full life I have promised you;

But if you dishonor, abuse or hurt them in any way

Know that I am God and my promise I will take away

Honor your mother and father as I have commanded,

And things will go well with you upon this land

Children, I say this to you because this is right

I am your God, honoring your parents also pleasing in my sight

 Trust God

(For Girls)

 You may be young and don’t know what trials you’ll meet in life

When you are faced with those trials, trust God and don’t be afraid

Always strive to do your best in school

In the end you’ll receive your just reward

There may be times when your peers will laugh at you

Don’t be discouraged, Christ was mocked too

Sometimes you may see your teachers as your enemy

They’re not; they do what they do to make you a winner

But, if you feel that you are being treated differently

Don’t hide it, you must go and tell someone else

There maybe days when you won’t feel like going to school

How will you stay ahead or even excel if you don’t

Don’t waste a lot of time thinking that your parents are cruel

They’re not; maybe you’re trying to go against their rules

Don’t forget that they are your parents and they deserve respect

After all, honoring them is what God has commanded

God also expects your parents to be kind to you

If they’re not; He will know; trust Him, and He’ll work it out

There may come a time when you may be asked to do drugs

Don’t do it! Think smart and always say “no!”

It’s okay for boys to be your friends, but nothing more

Don’t allow them to hurt or abuse you in anyway

Your body is a sacred temple, it belongs to God

Respect and preserve it, this is what the Lord commands

Stay away from those that gossip and spread lies

Think smart and always choose your friends wisely

You should treat people the way you want to be treated

God loves everyone, and to all His grace is extended

During your lifetime, many will turn their backs on you

God will never leave nor forsake you; His love is true

Making the same mistakes over and over is not okay

You should learn from your mistakes; God can help you if you pray

You will even have friends that will try to tell you how to live

Don’t listen because dishonesty and lies is what they may give

Besides, God commanded your parents to teach you right from wrong

When you honor, listen, and obey them, your life will be long

You must remember you will never be smarter than your parents

Throughout your life you’ll have to make many choices

However, trying to change your gender isn’t one of them

God is perfect; He doesn’t make mistakes; He created man and woman

Some days you may feel depressed and think that life is not worth living

You’re blessed! Christ died and arose for you to have life more abundantly

Don’t ever walk around with your head held down feeling defeated

You have a purpose, pray and ask God why you were created.

Soon you will learn that life on earth is just a great big test

One you can pass if you put God first, honor your parents, and love everyone

Remember, when life gets tough, close your eyes, look toward Heaven,

Trust God, and you’ll be blessed 

 

My Body Belongs To God, Not This Boy

                                   Why should I give my body to this boy?

He says he loves me but does he know love?

I’m too young to make a decision like this

And I sure don’t want to make a mistake

When we are together, I feel something is there

And he always tells me how much he cares

You see, we’ve been together for so long

But I don’t want to do anything wrong

I know I will follow my heart and ask God

Because my body belongs to Him, not this boy

Yes, I’ll ask Him, He always speaks the truth

When I got the answer it was one I already knew

God loves me and He told me the right thing to do

Thank you God, I can always depend on you

Now I know what my answer will be

It is an answer that God has given to me

God said that I should be married, but I’m too young

And if I give this boy my body, it will be wrong

This is my body, and I will tell him no

When I do, I know he won’t stay with me, he’ll get angry and go

But I’ll be okay because I’ve done what God said to do

So if you are a young girl and have this issue

Don’t worry, just pray and seek God’s face

He’ll put things into their perspective place

Today, I’m so happy because I chose God.

Yes my body belongs to Him and not this boy! 

 

 

                    I Got Life

 Please listen to me. I have been in trouble all of my life

I believe it’s because I was never taught the ways of Christ

As a toddler I was spoiled and always wanted my way

And as an older child, I never listened to what my parents had to say

They thought that I was so cute therefore they didn’t use the rod

Cute, I was, but they should have listened to God

As a child I did the kicking and the biting

And soon that turned into hitting and fighting

I may have gotten yelled at a few times, but I continued to do it

My parents loved me but never insisted that I quit

As I grew a little bit older I began to lie

And when I got into trouble, all I had to do was cry

That was the face my parents could not stand

Keeping me smiling and happy was always their plan

I never got spanked, just yelled at or put in time out

It didn’t take me long to figure out what that was about

My parents didn’t know, but as I got older, I got smarter

I continued to fight and my licks got a bit harder

One day my mom decided to go to work

She decided to put me in the nursery

And even there I wanted to do things my way

My parents were told that if I continued, I couldn’t stay

It didn’t matter to me, so I continued to fight

Why should I stop now, I’ve done it all my life

The kids had to know that I was the a bully

I was in and out of the nursery; then one day I got totally kicked out

It was fun being at home until my mom found another place for me

I needed a place where I could run wild and be free

By now I was five and still controlling my father and mother

It was their fault; maybe we should have spent more time together

Instead when they were tired, I would sit and watch television

And what I watched, they didn’t care; it was my decision

I saw the hitting and the fighting and I loved to see one killed

During the shooting, and bombing, I thought, what a way to live

It was exciting to me and it got into my head

I loved playing with guns and for someone to pretend to be dead

Then I got into music, the beat was cool, but I focused on the words

My parents must have known this stuff was messing with my mind

I was becoming a little gangster who wouldn’t be so kind

They thought I was cute, so they wanted me to dress the part

Now I was ten and I had more evil than love in my heart

And by now I had surely seen my share of schools

I kept getting kicked out; they told my parents I kept breaking their rules

My parents knew they created this monster

Yes, it was their fault, they thought I was cute, but I was a gangster

I continued to attend school, but the teachers had to earn my respect

I didn’t need school and I hated all the many boring subjects

I only wanted to attend school so I could spend time with my homeboys

They were thugs, they were cool and it was them I wanted to follow

Now I was into drinking and doing drugs, I would even carry a gun

To me and my boys, it was all a game and I had a lot of fun

By the time I was sixteen, I had been in a gang for years

I had done my share of fighting and there was nothing that I feared

I still didn’t listen to my parents, I believe they are the reason I’m this way

I tried to warn them, but they never listened to what I had to say

Now that little boy they thought was so cute is a gangster for life

I was proud of who I was even though I wasn’t living right

Then my parents wanted to put restrictions on me

Hey, I wasn’t having it, so I left home; I wanted to be wild and free

I spent my days with my homeboys listening to the beats

Then at night I got down and dirty on the streets

I was a gangster and I was recognized by all the ladies

I met one who was willing to call me her baby

We got together and we had a little homeboy

I was kind of touched so I kept her around for a little while

I loved my little homey, he had such a beautiful smile

By now I was eighteen, I had a baby I knew I was a man

I needed to take care of my baby, so I needed to develop a plan

I wanted him to have the best of everything

Yes, I wanted him to live like a royal king

One day my boys and I decided to rob someone on the street

We did and no one was hurt, everything went great

I continued to live my life stealing, on drugs and doing drive by’s

I had to do whatever it took for me to survive

One day as I sat and looked back over my life, I thought

I had to do something big, and exciting without a doubt

I loved and wanted money, so I decided to rob a bank

So I convinced myself to follow through, no, it wasn’t a prank

I got up the next morning pumped and ready to go, I didn’t know why

I did what I had to do, but I never wanted anyone to die

That day my life ended on the streets, I was put in jail

I was in for life and had no one to get me out on bail

I spent many nights wondering why my life turned out this way

I was angry and blame my parents to this day

I know that I’m partly the blame, but if they had done what God said.

How could I have learned what my parents never taught me

If they had obeyed God, and trained me, I wouldn’t be in jail I’ll be free

I went to see the judge; he had no mercy and sentenced me to life

My life was in a mess because I wasn’t raised right

But I never thought that I would be in prison for life

In here there is nowhere to go and nowhere to hide

You have to make the best of it and live one day at a time

It was my choice; I did it, now I have to pay for my crime

Living here is not good, and you’ll meet gangsters worse than you

Many times you’ll even ask yourself, now what do I do?

Even in prison you have to make a choice on who to hang with

Because if you’re not down with the gangsters you might end up dead

I ran with a gang for a while, but it was still messing with my head

I thought to myself this is old, there has to be a better life

Someone said to me there is, you’ll find it in Jesus Christ

It took getting life in prison to gain eternal life through Jesus Christ

Thank you, God, because today I feel like I’ve finally done something right.

 

          I Was Never Taught To Respect And Obey

 I was born a gorgeous little girl

My parents rejoiced as I made my way into the world

I was adored they didn’t have enough eyes to see me

Their love for me was real, I could clearly see

When I cried from the pain of needing to be burped

They would race to see who would be first to get up

When they laid me down to sleep at night

I could tell they didn’t want me out of their sight

I remember one night while crying my eyes out

They ran to my bed to be the first to turn on the light

Then I heard them say, baby girl, are you all right?

Sometimes they’d sing to me “now I lay me down to sleep”

But they never prayed to the Lord my soul to keep

By the time I was three, I had them wrapped around my fingers

And when I didn’t get my way, I would scream with anger

Many times I would trick them, by pretending to be sad

If only they knew I was messing with their head

As I grew older, they still let me have my way

My behavior got worse, and I went astray

I was never told that the things I was doing were wrong

So I continued in deceit, my heart became as cold as stone

You see in the midst of all of this, I was crying for help

I did some awful things, and always blamed someone else

My parents thought I was cute and could do no evil

And some of the things I did, they still didn’t believe

My parents made the choice not to spank me

Did they not know that God said spanking was okay?

They never corrected me I always did things my way

I wish they had obeyed God and raised me according to His Word

Instead they let me run wild, because they didn’t want to use the rod

By the time I was a teenager, I hadn’t changed I was just a little older

I continued to do what I wanted and I was a lot bolder

I wanted to always hang with the rough crowd

I was tough now, and I had a whole lot of pride

I was hot tempered and I was proud to be in a gang

I was having fun; to me it was just a game

I had my parents running in circles and very confused

Hey, it’s their fault, they thought the things I done in the pass were cute

I’ll always be in charge; I told them what I wouldn’t do

And going to school that was my choice too

They sat me down and tried to teach me how to respect

They should have done that when I was younger, what did they expect?

My mom was upset as my father pulled out the rod

It was too late; couldn’t they see that I was already spoiled?

He tried to hit me, I fought back, and I wasn’t taking it at all

Then I got angry because he didn’t spank me when I was small

By now I was getting into trouble with the law

I had seen some bad things, but I couldn’t tell them what I saw

I showed the Police no respect; they were told where to get off

I didn’t respect my parents, I wasn’t about to bow down to them

They threw my hands behind my back and pulled out the cuffs

I didn’t’ back down because I thought I was big, bad, and tough

The judge locked me in jail and threw away the keys

For the first time, I was afraid and cried, “Someone help me please!”

I was only sixteen and was given ten years in prison

I blamed my parents for all of my bad decisions

They were cowards who disobeyed God and wrecked my life

I was confused; they never taught me wrong from right

After spending years in jail filled with anger and no remorse

There were times when I didn’t want to live because each day got worse

I was sitting in my cell staring at the four walls one day

I heard this quiet voice whispering to me, “Christ is the way”

Surprisingly, what I had heard got my full attention

I turned and asked her to repeat what she had just mentioned

She said it again and I accepted Christ into my heart that day

It was at that moment, I was given a new start as my heart was held at bay

I was able to forgive my parents for not teaching me to obey

I hope they can forgive me and come to visit me here one day

I’ll be glad to share Christ with them, for He is the only way.

 

  

                God Saved A Thug Like Me

I’m sitting here trying to think about when my life began

I remembered being little and I got into trouble now and then

My parents didn’t make a big deal they thought I would be okay

Little did they know that behavior would never go away

In school I was called the Class Clown and a Bully

No one ever understood me fully

I was tough and fighting was my game

I guess you can say that trouble was my middle name

I didn’t respect my parents, let alone the teacher

I was a follower and not smart enough to be a leader

I did everything others told me to do

A gangster I wanted to be, yeah, I was that too

I admired and wanted to hang with the bad kids

Hanging with them, I saw and did things you wouldn’t believe I did

My parents saw me heading down the wrong path

They didn’t care; when I was younger all they did was laugh

They never trained me up like they were told

It’s too late now, because I’m big, bad, and bold

During my life I’ve seen and done some horrible things

No one ever told me that a life of Hell is what it would bring

I denied my family and made the choice to join a gang

Everyday I see my homeboys being killed

That made me crazy, but I continued to live my life on the streets

By now I had no love for anyone I would meet

Life wasn’t easy being a hardcore thug

I lived a life of killing, drinking, and doing lots of drugs

Every time I turned around, the cops were out to get me

Why can’t they leave me alone? I just want to be free.

My life was being wasted; I spent it in and out of jail

The last time I went in, no one bothered to get me out on bail

One thing lead to another and I was sentence to life

Because no one took the time to tell me about Christ.

 

 

          God’s Love Is Above All

                  During your life you will experience love in so many ways

As a baby, the first love you knew was that of your mother

Her love is unconditional; she will love you no matter what you do

And she will try to protect you from all hurt, danger, and harm

Then there is the love of a father; the disciplinarian;

the one with the strong arm

The love of a mother and father is like a force that can’t be explained

You may do things to upset them, but in time they’ll trust you again

You must honor your parents because their love will see you through many storms in life

After all this is what God commands; obey Him

and it will be pleasing in His sight

Then there is the sometime love of a sister and a brother

You may fuss and fight, or sometimes you may

even think you hate each others

You don’t; you’re only experiencing sibling rivalry, it too will pass

The love you have for each other will always last

We can’t ever forget the love of a grandparent

It’s a love that one can’t explain, because it is different

They’ll let you do and get away with things your

parents wouldn’t dream of

But they’ll quickly correct you when you are

out of line and doing wrong

Then there is the love of the one you call your best friend

You share secrets together, and you tell each other

the friendship will never end

But sometimes that is not true, you may do

things that might hurt the other

It is then you may doubt the love you had for one another,

but in time it will mend

How blessed are we when we know the Agape Love of

God the Heavenly Father

His love is more powerful than any love

you’ll come to know on this earth

God loved you so much; He was willing to send

His only Son to die on the cross

He didn’t have to do it but He did because

He loved you so much and He didn’t want you to be lost

Oh, what greater love than the one who laid down His own life

He is our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, His love is above all

When you lean on Him, His love is everlasting; He’ll never let you fall

If you live your life for Christ, doing what is right

and people turn their backs on you

Don’t be discouraged; remember Christ’s love will

never leave you no matter what you do

When you have the love of God the Father and

Christ the Son it is the greatest love

A love that can only blossom and pour out from Heaven above

    I Have Aids, But God Still Loves Me

As a child, I was never taught the ways of Jesus Christ

Therefore, I thought I didn’t need a Savior in my life

I’ve always thought it was my way or no way

When my parents spoke, I never listen to what they had to say

They never disciplined me; therefore I thought it was okay

I never got spanked, because they thought I would hate them

When I did wrong, we argued, and I’d win in the end.

You see I was cute and they didn’t want to see me cry

I did whatever I wanted, and I even told lies

I’ve grown and now I’m a little older

My parents are still weak and I am a lot bolder

I still don’t listen to them; they can’t tell me what to do

They tried to impose a curfew on me; I don’t think so

I’ve always had my way and I won’t change now

Even if I wanted to, I wouldn’t know how

I’m older now; sure I left my house at night

It all seemed normal to me I thought it was all right

I would go and meet my friend whom I thought loved me

I thought that I was in love and with him is where I wanted to be

Sure, I did things, I shouldn’t have done

Because I was never taught that these things were wrong

So I continued to do whatever pleased me

If my parents said anything, I’d tell them it’s no need

I thought I was grown and didn’t need them anymore

By now I’ve been with one person after another

I was having fun and I wasn’t hurting anyone

One day I woke up and my body was tired and weak

I was sick and I could not eat

Yes, I was weak and bound to my bed

As I laid there all of the bad things I did went through my head

I was a spoiled child, and now I am so afraid

I went to my parents to ask and seek their advice

I thought they’d be mad, but they were really nice

Their love for me was unconditional, this I could see

I was the selfish and foolish one; it was all about me

They advised me to seek a doctor’s help

For the first time I listened, I had no one else

I went to the doctor the next day

I was afraid because I didn’t know what he would say

He left the room for a moment and then he came back in

He told me it was Aids my body carried within

At that moment I screamed, because I didn’t know what to do

I thought, I am so young, how could this be true

I was a marked person and all of my friends told me goodbye

But, my parents loved me and they stood by my side

Oh God, please forgive me for how I treated them

I disrespected them, and I promise I won’t do it again

My body is hurting because it is stricken with Aids

If only I had listened to what my parents said

No one wants to be around me with this deadly disease

God, will you have mercy and help me, please?

I know the things I’ve done were wrong

But now I’m ready to accept Christ your only Son

I may be frowned upon for the rest of my life

But that’s okay, because now I have Jesus Christ

I’m not ashamed to tell the world I have Aids

You may turn your backs and push me away

But God still loves me, He offered me Grace.

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